ilikeyoutoday

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 21:33:40 GMT

i like it when you read something and yu are not sure if it is meant for you but if you can imagine it being about you then it makes me smile and feel better...it might be big headed but sometimes you just need that wee lift... xxx

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 12:42:01 GMT

i like to look at postsecret.blogspot.com
i think its nice to see what people keep as a secret...my favourite one so far had like a picture of stairsd anbd on the stairs it was written 'when noone is looking i walk nup the stairs on all fours (And i'm 30 years old)' i sometimes like to do that :) it seems to make life seem fun and make me feel like i dont have to grow up.
im getting so scared about the future...i dont know what to do with my life and i dont know if i want to know.
i want to stay young forever and just get my books published and be happy that way!
i want to be married with my baby by 25 and everyone thinks this is so young but i dont want to be an old mother! i just want to be happy and not judged.

past few days have been good- saw colin and emma g and went to ichiban- heard all bout colins mad flatmate...bit scary but i kinda feel sorry for him!

i feel a bit happier atm
and i totally love that 70s show haha
gotta book docs and dentist today
BOOOO
and get graduation stuff sorted
WAAAA
xxxxxxx

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 19:44:06 GMT

livejournal really only seems to get used around essssay times and exams hehe...in this case both...i have SO much course work to get done and it just aint a happening! :)
people are home for easter but they all like crap clubs haha
this is my analysis of life :)
i hate the buff club!
gonna go for a wee drink in bennets or polo tho me thinks with the colinshaped one...this is the plan for tonight...but im pure shattered.
stayed at the flat last night and when i got up to go for my shower i thought it was ok cos ross was in the kitchen and he said i could go and shower (which is in his room) he at NO point warned me of the girl that was in his bed
it was quite awkward esp since im nearly 100% sure she heard me fall over and scream in the shower because i am incpable. At least i managed to not sing :)
i hate work tho i really like the girls i was on with today and we are the same team tmw so it shud be okay...i dont wanna go tho tooo sleeeeepy!
i need to start applying for reakl jobs
YUCK YUCK
but i must go and get ready for the gay men
HOOPLA
xxxxxxxx

yarg

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 16:31:18 GMT

been a weird few days!
too uch weirdness for my liking but everything seemed to get better then stupid myspace had to make me super anxious again! i cant kinda put it out my head tho i believe him i dont know...i hate myspace is the moral of this.
had quite a few wee fun days apart from that. went to see vantage point and the cottage with ross and fremsley after work on sunday! it was funny! vantage point i really enjoyed tho i kept getting too into it and then the flashbacks would happen and i was like raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar which made ross chuckle a lot :) then we went to pizza hut and that was good too tho i felt sick- i think i was scared of going to see the cottage but jamie came up for that...i wasnt talking to him but i couldnt remember why. The cottage was funny...i didnt really really really like it...i didnt dislike it but i thought it was a bit stupid! jennifer ellisons voice is hilariouusssss though haha :)
went back to flat and got everything sorted out and it made the world a bit better.
went shopperinos with ross on monday and it was sooo funny. we were sitting outside the galleries so ross could eat his soup (with a LOT of difficulty) and this woman asked to take her fotos...i really wish i had washed my hair tho hahaha :) we went on a mini adventure round GOMA but it wasnt that exciting. He wouldnt go dress hunting with me but we did analyse the front covers of magazines a breasts rather loudly. It was good hanging out the two of us tho!
going to seee french and saunders tonight...just waiting for my maw to give me the leaving signal. Hopefully they will cheer me up a bit. I'm just so confused about everything. I want the truth to become REALLY obvious and for me not to be so panicy about everything.
GAH THE WORLD SUCKS!
i love that 70s show!
i love cherry lollipops!
i love random adventures and bitching about things!
i hate that i feel like shit atm :(
xxxxxx

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 11:31:09 GMT

It has beeen soooooo long since i wrote in this but i have some time again yaaaay!
Passed the dissertation, only like 2 months of uni to go and then i have to get a real job YUCK YUCK!
still got course work to go in but im taking a wee break just now before i head to uni!
everything is good atm :) still with jamie and happppppppier than the sun :) its a bit scary its a year in 2 months! still close with the mates that matter...and the ones that dont whoooo cares! got a whole new reaction to people and its not exactly a good one! but i dont care!
listers just gone back to paris! its saaaaaaad! i miss her already! especially cos we didnt leave on like the best of terms! ut i love herrr!
yesertday i saw a hot boy in the library...like he was very very very attractive and he made me blush a lot cos we kept catching each others eyes! it was not cool!
there were also the cutest kids ever on the subway! one woman with 2 kids that were about 2 and 3 and she was having issues getting off the subway so i asked if i could help and she gave me one of the wee kids hands to help up the stairs! she was jamaican and had the coolest accent and so did the wee boy- Denzel! totally cute...he kept telling me he was superman and cos i was playing the game boy he was getting totally excited! it was amamazing!
i want a baby soooo much hehe!
had a really good night out on monday as well! i was blitzed and then i sobered cos of nik "being there". luckily it wasnt him but i dont like that im so scared of someone that it has that effect on me even after nearly 2 years! but i got uber boozed again and had fun harassing ross when we got back to the flat!
had pure horrible dream last night tho that was like to do with the whole nik thing...it wasnt grooovy...dad had to wake me up cos i was screaming so much! I think he prefers it when i stay at the flat now hehe!
joining the gym again today! im gonna go...she says! :)
xxxxxx

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 20:06:05 GMT

i am sickened that myspace has gone insane valentines!
xxx

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 23:23:14 GMT

I hate february...its depressing and miserable!
this isnt some anti valentines day pish...i usually love valentines day cos me and kit used to spend it together but shes in edinburger and being weird with me so there is no fun anymore:(
but like february has been sooo hard for the past 4 yrs with both my grandads dying on the 17th but 2 yrs apart! i cant even think about it! i hate that day even tho its one of my best mates bdays! thinking about my grandads makes me actually cry and makes me want to just curl up! cos the first death was such a shock it was ok cos i could just pretend it didnt happen but my second grandad it was so horrible and awful that this has been one of the first times ive actually been able to say anything about it!
i have to go to the grave and i dont like it! i dont like being there! i dont like being in the village the grave is in!
man i feel physically sick atm!
x

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 01:08:05 GMT

Fall out boy was innsaneee! after actually plucking up the courage to go in...we got in and darling vinny hadnt lied about putting us on the guestlist woot woot! got very drunk very quickly...met both jamies (pne working one dancing in a pit), burke, craig or chris i can never rememeber his name and ots of crazy little kids. there were an annoying couple in front of me but by jongo thet go twhat was coming to them after i dropped my lollipop right in the girls bag causing a big sticky mess and then nearly settting her bfs dreadlock on fire...all my accident...but humerous accidents. got drunker and drunk and more and mroe free drinks yussss! and i also seemed to become the blindest girl in the world not knowing pete wentz was beside me/ knowing even claire was beside me/ knowing evil claires mate was beside me/ that vinny was sitting on my knee! but i noticed that soon enough:p and then he pointed out the other 3 which was fun HAHA! i also saw the lesbians that turned out to not actually be lesbians with guys...one being simo ho ho ho! brillopads! thpse lesbians were my best friend after the not so fun encounter with cat boy who i have seen every day since. i shouldnt get drunk...and if i do i shud come out with a better excuse than "i need to feed my cats" to not go back to someones house! pete wentz and i became good friends...thats a lie but he enjoyed my ugly face pullng...from starting the night hating the man i actually rlly like him now YAAAAAAY:) ghe was lovely an dheld my hand...and their wee man roadie guy is defo my fave! lister was rlly drunk it was funny she kept falling asleep in toilets...i was rlly drunk but just dancey about the place wootwoot!i fell asleep in the taxi tho hohoho!

monday night went to the pub quiz and once again bein gthemasters that we are we won YUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! i wish i drank beer cos then it would be an achievement to win:p but yeh it was funny tho tiring ho ho! i had one drnk and felt light headed! i spent a lot of time beating up paul cos he wouldnt tell me his secret but he did in the end and it was good!

had job interview on tueaday...it was funny as hell! the man and i discussed brownie badges, diagnosis murder, trees and the fact mysurname spells hamster! it was enjoyable and good! he told me i looked like a smoker! i kinda wanna remedy this! it was funny tho! then as i started to walk to uni i got soooooooooo sooooooooo lost! met these 4 wee boys who started going amongst each other "just ask her, just ask her!" then one came over and was liek can yu roll me a joint...i laughed i was so confused! but i was lost and so scared! then they were like YOUR PRETTY HOT and i was like you are 12 this is weird! then in my getting lostness i found them again and i was like can yu direct me out of this bastard park and they were like roll us a joint so i was like rtight fine gimme the hash and they were like we dont have any STUPID CHILDREN! but they took me out anyway and life was good! met iona and we bonded on sunglasses purchasing and an ugly man woot woot!

rev was funny i walked in and met iain! straight away i started shaking and acting like i was on ecstasy!i was so scared and drank a lot VERY quickly! i enjoyed my state of drunkness it was grooovy! i rememebr stuff but not everythng! i went into the toilet and lots of people suddenyl bombarded me with I KNOW YOUS and i was like erm ok! NUTS! another annoying claire was out...shes a tart! tart is one of my fave words! iona tried to set me up with her mate and was half successful haha! he was soooo nice! jo and i stole a spoon...possibly the most exciting things ive done in a while! it was better that rthey never noticed...next time we shall step up to a cup! it was my first drunk rev since august...CRAZY! grant proposed to me:D:D:D:DD: best day EVER! in the middle of the dance floor...at rev...he proposed...BEASTIN:p my wee husband:D:D:D i dont rememeber getting a taxi home...apparently i fell asleep as soon as we got in and just kept saying soap and swearing like a wee old man! i dont think id ever danced as much as i did! or insulted as many people but they are people that deserve it! i was sooooooooooooo proud of iona saying to claire it was nice seeing her in the toilet...made me giggle a LOT!

it was a good rev there were no tears altho sooooooooooooo many opportunities for them and we all didnt cry or get thrown out or pass out (until in the taxi woot woot)!

woke up on wednesday morning with a glowstick and sunglasses on:S
who the fuck knows man! but it was funny! my mother was meeeeeega confused! ende dup goi to maccyds with jo and james after un iat like 8 and there was the most junkified CRAZY woman there who kept falling asleep...she was EXCELLENT to watch tho i felt a bit bad and it was rlly sad! i love glasgow but it is filled with horrible things! and also seemed to be trying to be LA on wednesday night...it was the SCARIEST walk of my life haha!got in a horrrible fone conversation tho when i got home! ive once again had my life put into perspective and i know how hard things are for some oeple! i am glad that i am looked on as someone that people can go to for advice and support and just to talk to!im rlly worried about certain people tho and need to get it sorted but i dont know how and i know the timings not right! its hard when you know they are gonna block you out right away cos they dont wanna talk about it but you know that you have to!

thursday i had my trial shift a la buff club! it was rlly good i enjoyed it muchos and the boys there seem GREAT! i miss working in a club sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! but i know it doesnt go well with uni which is more annoying! i got to tkae over the cloakroom which was fun and easy haha! was good knowing one of the stewards as well:) even tho he did tell me id been involved in an incident in garage...an incident that i have NO recollection of ever happening...oh dear...need to find out if im barred!

went to tgis for lunch on friday it was soooooooo goood and funny! i love wacthing people i think its so interesting and like i like trying to guess stuff about them! its fun cos yu know yu are never gonna know what it is! lister had a shitey day so went up to parklands and we got stupidly drunk...on not too much booze i was the giggliest person in the world nad made martin come an dpick us up and take us into town for food...he LOVED it! ho ho ho i think not!
went to ikea todaty and have decided on my furniture...YUSSSSSSSS:)
moving in day is soon
WOOPWOOP:)
xxx

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 17:42:20 GMT

I have decided that i first got glanfular fever at leeds festival 2005...i think it makes most sense cos i was very ill straight after it and if it a kissing disease...it really owuldnt surprise me that i got it at leeds (siiiiiick but funny)!
i think i want to just get my tonsils out right now they are rubbish and sadden me!
fall out boy tmw...hahaha...i love free tickets:)
xxx

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 21:40:40 GMT

I am never going near a boy again!
they are the death of me!
went to garage last night...my first monday night in there sober...or anywhere near it...its the first one i actually rememember...in over a yr and a half... on entering i met 7 exs...WHHHIIIIITTTT????! it was AWFUL! but funny!
twas a stewards night out as well...banter was AWESOME! tho everyone was so confused at me being sober ho ho ho! booogie booogie!
it was funnny! made martin dance with me for 4 seconds to brand new! it was funny but we left STRAIGHT after...he couldnt cope with "the emo dancing" hes a dick man!
it was brilliant tho! i had a good night and left before any drama unfolded...BEEEAST!
i think i need to start wearing my glasses tho cos i can never see ANYONE and it takes me ages to work out who people are! me and allan and robbie sat for AGES trying to work out if toy boy was toyboy or not! i think he got a fright when he turned around! hes too cute tho!
i also enjoyed my RIDICULOUSLY long fonecall to drunken stuart! hes a moron!
i cant wait to move into my flat! starting painting it properly tmw...HOOPLA!
xxx

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 16:47:14 GMT

Got keys to the flat today:)
and i have hijacked my sisters laptop due to her buggering off on holiday!
Blood Brothers and Help she cant swim were amamaamamamzing! Shmexy Vinny got us on the guestlist at the last minute and i quickly became le happiest girls in the world! he is by FAR my favourite:p im pretty sure martin enjoyed being dragged along mwhahahahahaha! met sooooooooooo many people it was brilliant but nuts!
we ended up being persuaded to go to bamboo ho ho ho! It was funnnny tho knew like everyone there and so i wanted to hide. me+ school people= gay! i was amused by markness' utter STEAMINGNESS! he was a mess and gave me faith in alcohol!
martin and i didnt stay long...headed home and met my sister and her bf...she let me in this time rather than locking me out and expecting me to climb thru a window!
i rlly like gavin and i hope they stay together long time!
Thursday was marrs bday! ate a LOT of pizza it was nuts! went in and met him and emma l! i was a nice third wheel tho it didnt seem strange cos they are both like my best mates...but there were times when i was like ho ho ho i am the only one out with a couple! we ended up in cathouse and i was sooooooooooooooooo drunk! ithink i kept plying everyone with alcohol! it was nuts! and i spent muchos! but i had a funny night and it was good to catch up!
i miss people sooo much when they are away!
i rlly dont want emma and andy to split up...tis toooooo scary that its a possibility just cos shes goin away for a year!
martin got the keys to the flat today YAAAY:) its toooooooooooooo exciting! i might implode!i cant wait to move out! i think it will mean me and the rentals will get on better and fo sho me and my sister will:)
but will me and martin hahaha!
its a biiiiiiiiiig step but i think its a good one:)
why is everyone going skiing THIS weekend?
i like watching sex and the city tho it makes me cry ridiculous!
martins here beep
xxx

BEEEEEEEEEP!

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 13:30:48 GMT

End of exams makes me leeeee happiest girl dans le world!
i think i managed to say that about 10000 times last night for various reasons ho ho ho!
the exams were awful but im awused by how badly they actuakly went! here is to resitting secondo yearo! piiimpin!
had a nice night out on friday...went up to meet lister at parklands for a drink! martin got drunk which amused me and we did some good spying on lozs bo haha! i fell in love with her manager but i dont think shes too impressed hee haw! ended up goin to tesco and over to martins to watch anchorman and "study" it weas beastly! we made fajitas and discussed sexy time/ penis' and rape! HOOPLA! ho ho ho! it wasnt funny but interesting!
met my sisters bf and i think hes SPLENDID! i want them to get married and have kids and be together forever! purely because he giggled with me as a i watched bam margera yasssss:)
exam yesterday was ultimate pooor...if id done any work the i dont think it wou,d have been so bad...but i didnt...ergo its my fault when i fail...hooopla!
went out for dinner with the lister and it was sooooooooo good bt we ate too much abnd had difficulty moving! the waitor got a wee crush on my good friend i think heee hooo:p i made friends with an old businessman YASSSS! the people at the table beside us had the funnnnniest convos...i think percy is a good name for a porn star too matey!
headed along to stavka which was strangely quiet and then into the gayrage where i spent the first agggggges totally freezing and wandering about in 5 layers! lister an di giggled a lot at a boy with stupidly low jeans! he repulsed me a bit but then we decided he had a pretty face! and was prettier than his silly friend who we think was lesbos ideal man...
had a verrrrry strange conversation with a girl in the toilet...she was a bit nuts....i hope she found myspace eventually cos she seemed to be having difficulty evvvvvvvvery time we saw her!
danny was out which was amamamamamamamamamzing cos i havent seen him in agggggggges and i miss his banter! even tho he looked utterly terrified the whole night by pierres dancing! i enjoyed it when he suddenly started laughing and proclaimed "HAAAAH YU USED TO SEE IAIN!" i love danny like ma bruvvver hah!
matt story was out as well which was AWEEEESOME! i get points HOOPLA! and he gave me his hat....i rlly stole it but he didnt mind!
and vinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnie! who i think i love forever more! he dances funny and was goood banter tho mocked my muffin dance! hes a hotty thats fo sho!
my toyboy was also pretty pimpin hahahahahaah! i love my new found toyboy husband who REFUSED to call me sugar momma and it was rubbish! as i got in my taxi his mates put hinm in a bin hooozah!
josie and ruth were out too and i was like ho ho ho yu used to have control over me an dnow yu are both drunker than the sun! particularly josie who kept telling toyboy that he had to treat me nice and not hurt me or she'd get him mwhahah! i miss them loads tho! it was brillo "HELEN IS A TART!" hahahaha! looooove!

night wasnt alll good tho!
had big dilemmas with jamie and it was noooo fun! even though they werent dilemmas at the time i was being weird with him and it was really shit of me but he was rllly drunk and i got scared it was gonna be like last time it happpened so i went weird! i know hes pissed off that he had to come and talk to me...but that only happened on one occasion and the rest of the time when i saw him he was dancing OR leaning against a wall looking really dead and i didnt know what to do! but he hates me now and from his myspazz blogging fun i got the statement of sumthing like i dont care if you die! niiiice! hes never gonna undersatdn the way i feel about everything tho!
beep!
i love lister when shes drunk! she says funny things and makes me feel better about myself haaaaaaaaaah:) i like alan:) hes a funny guy! but we are rubbish at talking to each other cos every time we meet we never actally know if we know each other...but now we do...i kept telling him to not be a stranger! hoooopla!he had a ginger friend...i enjoyedr the ginger friend introducing himself as he got in the taxi and me being so amused buy this happening that i didnt actually listen to what he said...so ginger friend...if yur out there...helllo:)
i love having no exams...it means i can waste away my time again YASSSSSSS!
tidying room and writing cv is the plan for today...
how lovely!
the job hunt starts tmw!
xxxx

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 16:28:32 GMT

I am a rhyming GOD
start at the bottom of the entry and read up
x

i dont like my right big toe

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 11:49 PM

i still love you tho
like the worlds most perfect bo
i particularly like your right big toe
i rlly wish it would hurtry up and snow
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 11:46 PM

youre right. im no dre

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 11:39 PM

therefore your statement cant be right
as mr dre could talk right through the night
just like me, as long as there is light
im scared of the dark, id get a fright
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 11:37 PM

this rhyming stuff is so gay
i should stop it, i think i may
when it comes to rhyming im as good as dr dre
but i dont have a lot of things to say

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 11:31 PM

my dear stubag, i do not worry
unless its the decision over my mcflurry
when yu go to the supermarket i think yu shud hurry
move so fast that you look all blurry
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 11:22 PM

i dont wanna keep doing my rhymes
cos if i do youll be worrying about them all the time
im so good it should be a crime.
did you know a nickel is half the value of a dime?

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 11:17 PM

oh boy oh boy you are good
so much so yu could be from da hood
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 11:14 PM

no i shall not be attending cheesey pop
and yes im going on my daily shop
for dinner a baked potato you cant top.
i have bubble wrap i like to make it go pop

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 11:08 PM

why dont you go do your daily shop?
off to sainsburys you should hop!
tonight are yu attending cheesy pop?
i think i should sleep so i dont flop!
xxx

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 10:52 PM

are you going to do this forever.
i want to go to sainsburys and buy bread and potatoes

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 10:07 PM

the are most certainly two hot totty
who like each other- especially the botty!
i think you are the biggest hotty
who has walked the land of scotty!
xxx

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:43 PM

but jake gylenhaal (however its spelt) and heath ledger are so hot

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:41 PM

brokeback mountain was extremely bad
it didnt make me slightly sad
i went to see it with an imature lad
maybe that effected the fad!
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:37 PM

i know that you will never run out.
and whats wrong with brokeback mountain?

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:36 PM

i think i am still going strong
i cant believe you could be so wrong
i might make these rhymes into a song
and the chorus can go bing bang bong
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:34 PM

ok. youre back to those high standards of rhyming you set yourself in your original rhyme

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:32 PM

i know for a fact that lie is not true
i dont know how you could say that, stu!
im starting to think differently of you,
I hope you get infected with deadly man flu
xxx

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:29 PM

they get worse with each one

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:27 PM

you are rihgt i am good!
i like that you are not a prude!
i can see yu cutting up wood
you, stuart g, are one cool dude!
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:23 PM

you are so good at this

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:21 PM

i dont know if i like the way you mock
you bully the new found way i talk!
you are hoping i have a mental block
but my word shelves are filled with stock!
xxx

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:18 PM

haha

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:16 PM

my dear, what are you talking about?
im in now way near running out
i am far from a word drought!
you look like a trout!
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:09 PM

youre running out of them.
im not a fan
of being called stan
haha im so good
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:07 PM

this my darling was the plan
i may being to call yu stan
you look quite shmexy with a tan
i do love you my dear man!
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:03 PM

good job. i suggest from now on you cannot use anything but rhymes when you write

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 9:00 PM

oh my boy, you have no idea!
Its because im filled with such good cheer!
its nearly time for santa and his reindeer
and tmw i have a date with a boy- i can leer...
on!
lolz
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 8:55 PM

you are so good at rhyming

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 8:53 PM

i am not trying to trick with my little ditty
i am purely being rather witty
you are too suspicious to live in this city
i like you a lot, it is a pity
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 8:50 PM

you will not trick me into wearing a tie
i just dont feel like wearing a tie. nothing to do with emo

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: iloveithere<3
Date: Dec 1 2006 8:48 PM

why oh why will yu not wear a tie?
is it because you might break down and cry?
will your emo side pop up like a fly
and then your emotions with break free and yul die?
x

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: i had to self-defense myself
Date: Dec 1 2006 8:45 PM

lets see......
no
i will not wear a tie

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 23:48:10 GMT

I love Tim Burton!
watched the corpse bride today it was spiffin!
laura nd i went shopping in SAFEWAY after i handed in my essay! it was glorious! we also played in puddles which rlly consisted of me playing in puddles!
soooooooooooooooo happy to have to essay away from me! i dont care how bad it was it is GONE hoooopla!
onely one more exam
hooozijuice
&&&
hanging with stuface on tuesday!
no idea in what sorta waaay buuuut i think it will be good and im taking it as friends!
woke up to random txt from nik...slightly confused by it!
altho i didnt rlly know it was him until meeeeeeeeeeeeeega later!
i rlly dont think he meant to send it to me and if he did its cos he was drunkity drunk drunk!
i need to do work for classics but i cant actually bring myself too!
shiters!
new car tmw
yaaaaaaaaaaay
but i dont get to drive it for a week
stuuuuuuuuuuuupid insurance!
xxx

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 18:45:52 GMT

I like to realise how much i love my friends! and i like it when its for no reason that the feeling comes around
There are just certain people that really can make my day and i KNOW will always be there for me no matter what, even if i dont see them alot or EVER!
Like my best friends from school who although we are at different unis and its difficult i know if i need to talk to them i can call them and cry and everything will be better! an di know they know they can do the same thing! its not a fake friendship its the real thing! kinda like a real love!
Then there are people like garry...who i class as one of my bezzers even though i never see the cheeky little chimp! i speak to him every day i think and we never run out of things to say! hes understanding, hes loving and he is the singularly most passionate boy i know! its insane how much effort he will put into everything just to say hes tried it...and i know he will succeed. the way we met is so strange...through burtny who utterly hated him...but we bonded straight away and i rememerb the first txt i got from him i was buying clothes in gap and he had bought trainers! its like 3 years ago and hes one of the few people that i KNWO i never wanna lose touch with but wish i could see more...just differing lifestyles make this difficult and complicated. I just hope that he talks about me to his other friends as the way he speaks to me about them!
went to lauras last night and we were looking through our yearbook which was funny in itself! but then we realised that our masssssive group of friends are the only ones that have actually stayed together since first yr...like there have been add ons who have then disappeared but the core people are all still there...and i KNOW they always will be! weve lasted 2 years at uni and i cant see it changing at all! but years abroad and stuff i suppose will show this!
i dont know what il do without laura when she goes to paris!
i love the dork sooooo blooody much, i cant actually bare to think of her not living just up the road...
at least i dont have the fear with martin...he will be in the next room:)
to all my friends: i love you!
xxx
oh shiters i rlllly need to study!

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 16:39:46 GMT

I got a new car:)
Ford Fiesta Ghia...brand new...in a colour called Tonic!
I don't know HAH! we based the love for it on its silly looking lights!
Martin and my dad are like best friends! its tooooo cute! my parents will never be happy until i say that me and martin are a couple and are getting married...unless i meet another boy who measures up to his wonderousness...haha...which in their eyes is impossible...and they are possibly right!
going to listers tonight to ~~hang out~~ do my essay and munch on potato probz! and gossip about the hatred over boys:) weeheee excitemondo!
wen to the library last night...my first time EVER studying in there and i genuinely think it will be my last it was soooo stupid! i could see a hot boys reflection in the wondow but couldnt find him anywhere and spent the majortiy of my time in tjhe library looking for him/ looking at the crazy girl in the pink boa! toooo mnay distractions!
but tis essay time now...hoopla!xxx

New year...hah HAPPY?

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 19:28:52 GMT

It was the best New Year i've had in at least 5years...which is saying something!
there were only like 6 of us there and andys lil bro but it was really nice! until i got HORRRIFICALLY drunka dn passed out inthe toilet with ian for 2 hours or sumthin! i ermemeber NOTHING past 5 to 1 and i rememebr at 5 to 1 thinking omg i am soooo drunk! thats it that is my onlyu memory! up until then i remmeber a slight game of "i have never..." which might be why i got rlly drunk:S i dont know tho!
i wen tout wearing a dress and woke up tasting of sick (yummmy), wearing a pair of boxers, ripped tights, a massssssive white shirt and russel brand style hair! and also a kinda purple moustache thing going on! it was not attractive but slightly humerous! APPARENTLY i met jo and boydie and i was drunker than the sun! i dont even rememebr going outside! its horrible i hate not remembering...i think alcohol + nurofen= ridonculously bad idea! i was sick up until LATE on new yrs day and didnt get to eat ANY new yrs dinner... it was pantstastic:(
but im glad i spent it with the people i did! apart from i kinda wish it hadnt been ian in the toilet with me...id have much prefered sumone else...but then again i dont even know if it was hgim considering i rememebr being sick and thought i had just been in there for like 20 mins but no no it was more than that! just all my memories involve him being there...
KAT WAS SICK TOO!
i feel really bad... and am going to buy andys parents a gift!
was jamies bday last night but im totally stressing about exams and i didnt go out for it! its actually his bday today...i make such little sense! but apaprneltyy a lot of people pulled out at the last mo and i think hes pissed off at me even tho i never acrtually said i could go...grrrr boys!it wud have been disastrous anyway cos i was sleepy and had last shift today and would have been stressing about uni so it would have been pants company for him!
i am sickened by myself! i got soooooooooooooooooo jealous earlier from stupid myspazz investigations over stuart! ragggge! i HATE feeling jealous and thought i was over that horrible emotion but noooooooo i had to get all stupid RAGGE! silly myspace silly silly silly!
had a rllllllly nice bonding convo with skarsoles iain last night! hes amamamamazing! hes going to be my teddy bearL:p haha i dont even know but hes awesome thats fo sho! and sooooooooo hot! and sooooos skinny! i was amamazed by this at the gig the other night!
i think i want to do a post grad in medicine...
coming from the girl with an AMAMAMZING inability to study and was banned from sciences at school!
im trying to plan dougies going away party but hes making things tricky by saying things he DOESNT want and little things that he DOES want! and what he DOESNT want is all about a certain dj!
hes a donkey!
im buying decks i think!
but not till i have a NEW job and move into le flat!
anyway
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE:)
i hope its better than the one before even if it was beezer
and for me...
i hope boys+ moving to london are avoided:p
xxx

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 19:55:36 GMT

Im scared of storms!
Had gooood few days! apart from needing to find new smelly job booo!
but last night was fun! met kat and came home...ate some spag bol sauce mmmm and then headed pour le train at a quick pace! messed about in central and bumped into jo and we grabbed her and ran on a train to greenock!
dougie was nonsensicle on the fone and was being rubbish at the directions! but he came ot get us and was VERY drunk which was funnnnny!
got to the steamie and i got soooooooooooooo nervous talking to chris but it was nice! hes luuuuuuurvely! the first support man thing came on and it was soooooooo funny! he covered a skarsoles song! dougie and i wanted to set him and kat up but our plan backfired when he asked for my no! i was like erm im kinda seeing chris and he was like oh i had no idea and i was like erm either did i...but i rlly like him so sorry! this is the second time this has happened while in a convo about sublime! Billy was there are i hadnt seen that wee emo punk in aggggggggges! was NUTS! hes a moron but! i got pretttty drunk and danced like a mad person...it was LOVELY! jo and i went for a weee midnight run through greenock! it was DISASTROUS! we were soooooo drunk! there were police....one wheeled bikes pretending to be wheelchairs and laughing so much yu cant stand up! and TINSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL:) hahaha yaaay! i like it when yu realise yu are soooo drunk when yu sit down!
dougies dad came to pick us up and when we were leaving chris said "il call yu see yu later" and in my drunken state i reenacted a MENTYAL p[art frm georgia nicholson analyzing "see you later" IT WAS FUNNY!
car was soooooooooooooo funny we were MEGA booozed! ian knew tho! back at dougies we played ping pong and i BEAT HIS ASS! it was AWEOSME! kat and him danced ON ME! it was stressful and my skirt fell off...like jsut slid riiiight off me! dougie has a foto! its bad but funny!
i got ill! but he took care of me!
foned in sick today!
kat and i went to tesco and it was AWFUL! it was CARNAGE! and mental! and everything was flyinmg about and going insane and bins/ trolleys/ cars all going nuts! STRESS IN A HANDBAG!
just about to head to marrs!
woooogooo:)
HAPPPPPPPPPPPPY NEWWWWWWWWW YEARRRRRRRR!
xxxxxxxxxxx

Christmasssss

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 17:34:44 GMT

I enjoyed christmas even tho i felt like poop! got some awesoem prezzies including knee high slippers, an amamamamazing camera that is NOT suitable for nights out lolzors, jewellery, make up, dvds, cds etc... was GREAT!
i got super dooper drunk with my 80+ yr old auntie! it was RIDONCULOUS! but funny as bejesus on a stick!
boxing day was work and sleep filled...v boring! but i was ill and had over eaten eeeep! was sposed to be goin out to cathouse with the grantface but io got a weird fever and fell asleep mega early!
yesterday was awesome! worked which was a bit pants but i find out if i get kept on tmw or if i need to find me a new job/ crawl back to the gayrage:S but yeh met grant and we got a train to west kilbride to go to his! we went for a wee walk around the forest with his dog- angel! and it was amamamszing! like its weird how safe i felt even tho he told me there was a panther and tried to scare me with a chainsaw in the garage! it was a rlllllly nice walk and stuff! then we went back to his and he cooked me tassssssssty spag bol and we watched QI all cuddled up on the sofa! and then we ate dinner by a fire at oppposites end of a MASSSIVE table with a candlesticlk in the midle and unreachable cheese! thennn we got all sleepy watched some more tv, watched spongebob squarepants movie under duvet with MASSSSSSSSSSSIVE ampoutns of ice cream i thot i was going to die! it was soooooooooooooooooooo good tho! totally relaxed and grant makes sense of stuff! i dont knwo! hes amamamzing! wen tto bed and took gay myspace "just falling asleep" foties! fell asleep to the crackling of a fire! and we shared a bed well:) gah hes awesome!
this morning went for another weee walk and then got the train home!the ticket man KEPTdroping money! it was sooooooooooooo funnt! i got a bus from central and the wee driver asked ome on a date! it was REPULSIVE!
dougie came over and we headed to the amamamamzon! tho we got lost and i had to direct and hten we got to strathclyde park but then got lost agagin but we FINALLY found it after like an hour and a half! went arou d the amazon and it was amamamzing! me and dougie were pathetic tho! screaming and running from caged animals! but there were the cuuuuuuutest wee monkeys! after spending like an hour there we went across to the bowling place and ate and played dance mat and other games and it was dandy! and we bought silly things like pan pipes and lady bird umbrellas! and we discussed boys- chris, marc, jamie and girls- jenni! guess who did the more talking lolz! it was rlllllllly good day tho! went back to the jungle after like 2 hours to this like holding thing! i touched the dead snake skin...dougie prodded it! iheld the snake...dougie didnt! then the spider came out and we RAN!
yuck yuck
essay time tonight:(
and decisions about new yr
i hate new yr
xxx

ITS FRICKIN CHRISTMASSSSSSS

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 19:33:25 GMT

I am the happiest girl in the world!
christmas is GREAT!
work was awesome! seeing how excited some lil kids get just brightens up your day! but it makes me angry that part of their childhood santa claus experience is ruined cos of pervy pedos wanting kids...raaage! but a lil kid today was soooo excited and when i said merry christmas to him he YELLED asda advery stylie MERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY CHRISTMAS! and it made me sooo happy and like gahhh it was awesome and cute as a weeeeee button!
gah!
i also got told i was satan today by a crazzzzzzzzy man! but kev did too so i felt a wee bitty better!
i love christmas!
im still to wrap all my presents tho!
i want it to snow!
im gonna go and watch a mupppets christmas carol, home alone and the nightmare before christmas tonght i think:)
weeheeee:)
correctomondo i am loser:)
I HOPE YU HAVE A MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS KIDDOS:) and that santa is muchos good to yu:)
xxxxxxxxxx

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 21:12:28 GMT

Muchos has been a hip hop happening:)
work is eating my life cos im there allllllllllll the time but i love it so allll is good! i dont know if i get to stay on after xmas or not but hey ho lets goo!
i cant rememebr much of whats been goin on so im just gonna go from tenacious d lolzors!
went to see tenacious d and it was lovely! haha lovely whhhat! saw howard and it was awesome cos not seen him in aggggggges and he got us into standing BEAST:) gig was rlly good as well! funny:) went to garage after! me and jamie had been getting close and stuff and sorting out us splitting up and everything seemed good! i was mega boozed in garage and as was he apparently and we ended up kisssing but both were rlly happy and like it was alllll gravy! then i went away came back and he was pulling another girl! so i went into the toilet and punched a wall, broke a toilet door and a condom machine (woops!) and ended up having to go to the doctors! i was MORE enraged by him senidng me a myspace of "hey baby, was rlly good seeing you last night, sorry i didnt get to say goodbye but i got sidetracked" i was meeeeega pissed off but more pissed off that i was pissed off, ye get me?
annnnywaaayyy i didnt cry which was impressive i just basked in my annoyance!
he told me he loved me though!
bit nuts!
went to the last rev of the year! marcface was djing! was good to see him! and he played dizzee so i was hip hop happy! was better when i got a miss atlanta sandwich tho hahaha TASSSSSTY:) the 4 hottest boys around me yasssss:)
had skarsoles gig on sunday there and i was such a mess! i was sooooooooooooooooooo drunk on one drdink in classic grand it was shocking and i met ppl from my primary skl and i kissed zee don and it was funnnnnny tho embarassing cos i also punched him in the balls:)
i like to call him a pedo!
hes lovely tho:)
just been working this week pretty much!
colin finally came out to his parents and its all good! they dont care or anything! went to see polar express last night at the imax an dit was amamamamamamaamzing i loooooooooooooooved it and was mega christmasssy! so when chris foned me when i was in tesco i think he got a bit scared eeeep!my fringe is rlly soft today i like it!
jamie turned up at work today! it was nice but i get scared seeing him! i dont know what to do or what he will say or what he thinks is happening!
stuart and i are good! hes in america but everyhting is fine still mates and stuff!
AND NEW FLAT SOOOOON YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY:)
ive seen it and i LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE it! its the most amamamzing place in the world! and i get to decorate my little room! i want strips in it! and crazy posters and pictures all over it! and fairy lights! and two tone checkers...gahhh!
im so excited i might wet myself:)
everything is good tm tho! nearly chirstmas, job, flat, friends, boy? lolzors!
xxx

i am stupid

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 19:39:11 GMT

Today i got my film essay and i passed yaaaaaay!
i also got an email from my theatre people being like you are stupid yu answered the question on dial;ecty and not dialectic...
i dont know what dialectic means tho
but ive been given a second chance to redo the same question
except with the right word
so im happy at getting another chance
but sad at being a moron in the first place!
what does dialectic mean?
xxx

baaaap

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 12:41:01 GMT

So had 4 shufts at the zone of musical goodness and i love it more and more every time i work there! i love the people i work with especially Kevin and Dee- my working TEAM:) lolz! and my boys! they rlly are...ourt computer code is alex and the boys! they dont get named mwhahaha! nicoles awesome too! actually just everyone there hee haw:)
the public are silly tho! "does this karaeoke dvd have words?" i looked at her blankly!
saturday night went out with stuart and disaster happened! we kissed but we shudnt have and now things are weird and i dont like it! but i met graeme and it was funny haha! i was sooooooooooooo drunk at cathouse! i hardly rmeemebr it! i rememebr like nothing from the night...like meeting matt and andy craddock and demanding a foto! but dougie informed me of this the other day and i was like hee hee im a spanner!
matt willis is coming into work on tuesday! im excited! its funny!
went on a date last night with a boy i dont know but it was funny! i was an hour late woops! but it went ok after that!
i am sooooooooooo cold!
and its weird!
just found this tribute to callum on bebo but i was at the dentist today and i got my mouth number and the tribute made me cry but i could only feel the tears on one side and a rlly weird feeling onthe other! it was MEGAAAA odd!
xxx

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 00:54:25 GMT

its nearllly christmas and i am in ridicucucucuculous good cheer!
went to skarsoles gig tonight and it was soooooooo good! it was weird tho cos fo rth efirst time of being at a skarsoles gig i didnt feel like the stupid little kid who tagged along and had to come to soundchecks cos she couldnt get in...i actually thought the band didnt hate me hehe:) like they were always nice to me and stuff just now they are rlly differnet and totally awesome! chorr was there as well and it was funny seeing him! i think i used to fancvy him but i had to text kat to ask her! was rllllllly good just hangng out with dougie tho just teh two of us! i bought him a lollipop! i am god!
not done tooo much else this week! just working and uni and stuff! its all rather boring buuuuttt i feel good about most things!
i had a masssssssssssssive heart to heart with kim...we bonded ridiculously and i liked it! we spoke about jamie and how i was confused about how i felt and how i think i want him back but i dont know if i just want to be loved as much as he loved me again after the shitness of my love life the past 2 months! but i dunno! and i dont wanna do anything until i do know! i think i keep dwelling on exs too much! like iain wanted to go for a drink! and im seeing stuart on saturday...i think im just a big girl love mess!
ive also discovered that when most girls get their period they crave chcoolate and cake and stuff...but i crave poppers and cigarettes...its an odd situo!
i rlly shud be doing my essay...or maybe sleeping...or brushing my teeth for my imminent dentist appointment where they can tell me my tetth are stupid again raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaage!
think we r goin to the ouse of meow tmw night! but i dunno if i shud considering i have work at 9 and its a long shift...nd my first long shift so there are probably smarter things that i could do....like this god forsaken essay!
annnnywaaayyy
wiiith my moccasins on a will gooo faaarrr ooooohhhhhweeeoooooh!
ADVENT CALENDER TIME!
today was progressive...i went to btoh a gig and tesco...by myself! insane in the membrane! someone just signed onto my msn and their name was "wrinkles make yu prettier" i think they are growing old ungracefully!
i have "more" to read...yaaaay:)
xxxx

first day

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 15:55:00 GMT

had my first day at the new job today:)
it was meeeeeega exciting!
ive made a feriend called kevin! he has a beard and i like him!
we talked about buses...and kids tv...and america...and tokyo! i told him i would tie him to my leg! i like him alot and he is bordering on my new bezzer!
i am tired tho! i like that about garage...i coudl still have a lie in but no such glory from the zone of musicalness!
xxx